okay...
one, two, three... here goes...
well, everything this monday, shall i say, ended very well..
but, when we were about to go home, a touch of bitterness appeared from somewhere...
well...
honestly, i really did not know what i did wrong at first..
but after minutes of thinking i realized what i did...
after that i talked to ***********....
i told him that i already know what i did wrong...
i apologized because i see no other way in which he would not get mad anymore...
he accepted it..
after that, everything was already okay...
the next day (yesterday)...
everyding also ended alright...
but at the strike of 7:30 pm..
i received a text message...
it was not intended for me...
so actually...
it was wrongly sent...
i was really hurt with that message..
i did'nt know how to react...
but, after a while, my eyes burst into tears...
i talked to a friend of mine(****)....
he told me that *********** had a problem...
i asked him: "may kuneksyon ba sa kin??"
he replied:"parang ganun na nga.. basta..."
i did'nt know what to do again...
i was very deppressed and i did not eat dinner...
i spent the whole night crying over that thing...
my gosh! *********** talked to me through text...
he discovered that i already know what his problem was...
he tried to apologize...
actually, he has nothing to apologize to...
i wasn't mad.. i was hurt... well, actually, i don't know if you need to apologize when you hurt someone..
i really didn't know what to do...
i was so confused with mixed emotions and everything...
i tried to kill myself...
but unfortunately, my mother caught me...
i went to school this morning..
first thing i did was cry...
i didn't know why...
but the second i saw ***********, i just started crying...
after that..
**** tried to stop me fron crying...
i stopped because it was time for the flag ceremony...
*********** tried to talk to me the whole day today...
honestly speaking, i was trying to avoid him because i know that i'll just cry in front of him...
i thought, we will not go home together...
but it happened..
he reached us in the lrt station and went with us..
he tried to talk to me again...
i told him that i was not mad... i was just hurt..
when we separated...
i had time to think...
i realized that i was wrong in this case...
i jumped to conclusions which were all false...
i apologized to him when he called me at 6:00 pm...
then, after a while, we were okay again...
but when i told him that my mom was already there and that we had to live...
he said:"sige, ganyan naman eh... sanay na ako..."
then he hung up...
i am now having the feeling that he is mad..
i don't understand why...
oh well... it's getting late...
till here...
i'll still research on our project in social studies...
buhbye!
pinky017
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Wednesday, October 04, 2006 